I can’t believe I’m planning my work’s holiday party already, I swear it was yesterday when I was coordinating last year’s party. It seems that the years just keep flying by, faster and faster with each year and if I’m honest, that scares me. It feels like the years move by faster than I can get my shit together and that is incredibly frustrating because all of a sudden it’s the holiday’s again and you’re like wait wasn’t it just July? To be honest I have no idea where this year went, all I can say is that 2017 was… bizarre. There was good, bad (I will spare you the bad), and just bat shit crazy moments that I don’t really know how to explain it (AKA everything in the news).
So here’s my attempt to explain this past year for you… I started off the year in a new role at work as a Marketing Coordinator. I have been working towards/waiting for this for years… YEARS! So this was huge for me but also meant change and adapting to that change and surprise surprise that bled into my free time outside of work. When I started this new role, it’s almost like I forgot how to do hobbies in my free time. Note to self Allie, you’ll think you’ll have this nailed down 5 more times but you’re wrong. Trying to do work, exercising, cooking a healthy dinner, watching some Netflix, and fitting a creative hobby isn’t going to happen, especially when you choose sleeping over waking up early to exercise. And you know what? That’s ok! I mean I’m not thrilled with trying to figure out how to juggle it all and having hobbies fall off majority of the time, but I’m trying to focus on I’m doing the best I can. So if you are wondering where I’ve been blog wise this year, that’s what happened… I just kinda failed at keeping up with it with everything else going on.
So with that, I did an art show in May and… it sucked. I sold one print, which is great but the turn out of foot traffic was lame AND on top of that the people were making fun of the art displayed while the artists were right there! I unfortunately wasn’t immune to this; I heard people making fun of my art, which kinda left me uninspired to paint. Not just because of these awful people, but I just haven’t really wanted to pick up a paint brush lately. I have ideas but the effort of spending the time and making the mess, I just would rather pick up a camera. So that’s exactly what I did, I really got into photography this year. I started shooting in manual and it’s my new obsession, I literally use my DSLR every single day!
I also traveled the most I have ever in a single year, mainly for work but still that was cool. We didn’t go on a vacation this year, still bummed, but I made the grown up decision of not going on one just in case my car needed yet another massive expense of maintenance and would end up bankrupting me right after coming home from vacation. It just seemed like that was bound to happen so I decided not to go and hopefully we will have a kick ass vacation next year. (Spoiler alert: I was right).
There are many things I wish I did in 2017, but it just felt like I spent the year moving slowly, adapting to the change, coping with everything that happened in the world this year, and just getting up to speed. Some of this I could of controlled, but a lot of it was out of my hands, so I think going into 2018 I want to have the mantra of doing the best I can with what I have. Next year I turn 25, meaning I’ll be half way done with my 20’s, and if I’m honest, I’m not happy with that but I can change that. Hopefully with reminding myself that I should make the most with what I have, it will be able to outweigh the bad things that happen along the way and will eventually lead to really awesome things! I’m tired of falling subject to #adulting throwing me through a loop, it’s time to get back up and make what I want happen.