I’ve always been someone who focused on longing for the future rather than focusing on the moment, ever since I was a kid I would wish I was an adult. I can remember my dad telling me multiple times not to wish I was an adult and enjoy my childhood because once it’s gone it’s gone. Man was he right, being an adult is not all fun and games. In college I would stress over not knowing what I wanted my major to be and what I wanted to do with my life that the whole experience flew by in a stressed almost fever dream. I had fun don’t get me wrong but I know I definitely could have had more fun if I didn’t spend so many hours agonizing over what I’m doing with my life because news flash Allie, it’s two years since you graduated and you still don’t know.
Your going to turn 24 next month and you can’t believe where these two years have gone. It’s a a blur of multiple car expenses, an appendectomy, and working. Now your starting to wonder if your twenties are going to flash before your eyes just like your childhood and college without a chance to really enjoy it. So I’ve decided it’s time for a change.
It will be a challenge but I’m going to put all my effort into working on enjoying life right NOW! I mean I can still try and work out big picture ideas but I don’t need to put as much focus on it as I have been. I know things will work and I will continue to grow but let’s face it, you can’t turn back time. How am I going to do this? Well because I’m currently trying to save for a car (BOO adulting) I can’t really afford a lot of travel so instead I’m going to focus on doing things locally like getting outside with my dog more, checking Facebook for local events, trying to catch up friends… it’s a start but it’s something that is important to me and I think important to a healthy lifestyle in general. I know the future will work out, I know I won’t completely forget about it but I really want to focus on what I want my daily life to look like now outside of my 8-5 job. I want it to be something that fuels me and brings me joy, it doesn’t have to be jam packed with activities but a healthy balance that way I won’t feel like I’m wasting away my twenties worrying.
This was sort of a little note to self pep talk I’ve felt like I really needed, please let me know if this helped you. This is sort of a brain dump or prompt for a passion project I’m thinking about starting so I would love to know your thoughts on this post, leave me a comment.